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Half-thought I was dreaming, so it wasn't too weird. But I'd never dream about you losing your Suguru, or talking about myself like that, so I'm sure it's not a dream.

A few weeks ago, yeah.

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are you afraid to see me, suguru?

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No. Why would I be?
Where should I meet you?

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youre asking plenty of questions
hmmm, meet you at the aquarium?

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It's called curiosity, maybe you should learn some.
Are you taking me on a date, Satoru?

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maaaaaybe
remember that time we saw this whole school of fish ganging up on another one
and u got upset

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Yes. It wasn't that long ago, for me.
The fish didn't deserve that.
Why is that relevant?

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it's relevant because we're meeting at the aquarium, right?
also its been awhile
dont be afraid when u see me ok?

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Why would I be afraid when I see you?
Satoru, you make no sense.
Are you sure you won't be afraid when you see me?

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[ oh, sweet suguru ]

u might hate the second head i grew
ooo suguru thinks he's scary!
why would i be afraid of u

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You haven't grown a second head. You'd be twice as obnoxious, and you're actually not as bad as my Satoru.
You've lost your Suguru, so maybe you're afraid of seeing one again.

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hehehe maybe ♥

[ not at all; but really, people should be afraid of the things satoru wants to do to him. ]

is your satoru so bad? i can take u away

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[ like he'd ever be afraid of that ]

You should know what he's like, since he's you. You're him? Something like that.
I love him, even if he is annoying.

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how nice
do you love me, suguru?

[ somewhere in the distance, baby!satoru sneezes obnoxiously into his parfait ]

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Of course I do.
There isn't a world where I don't love Satoru.

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[ oh, he shouldn't have let you go. ]
is that so?
whys that

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Are you fishing for compliments, Satoru? Or simply unsure why I love you?

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[ more the latter, really ]

of course im fishing for compliments from suguru!
dearest suguru gives the best toe-curling ones, such a charmer 🥰😘❤❤❤❤❤

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[ satoru, you're so obvious. or maybe suguru just knows him well enough to judge what he really wants, even this older, sadder satoru. ]

Still the same, I see. That's comforting to know.
You are my best friend, my one and only.
You make me smile and pull me out of my head when I need it, and remind me to have fun. You're a brat, and so annoying sometimes, but even those are so endearing. You complete my soul. I can't imagine not having you in my life.
The first time we slept together, I woke up in the middle of the night. You looked so peaceful and relaxed and beautiful, it felt like a dream. Didn't want to wake up from it because what if you weren't really there? And then you shifted and put your head on my chest and drooled on me, and it made this perfect moment even better because it was real.

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[ ah, isn't this something? all the things satoru never got to say to him, all the things suguru never got to say right back, spilling into his phone like he's never left.

except he did, and it's gojo's fault for not seeing his distress. his own happiness blinded him, and then suguru's lost to him forever.

he stares at the text for a long, long moment, thinking about how it's this tenderness and sweetness that will break him in the end. but this, this solidifies what satoru needs to do. ]

suguru always has such a way with words, see

you're the only one i will ever have and want.
no one else comes close, u know
u get too in ur head sometimes and u forget
silly suguru
im not me without u

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